In the Garden, During the Cool of the Day
"In the garden, during the cool of the day, is where I met Jesus. He healed me, delivered me, and set me free. He clothed me and set a crown on my head. I now wear my story and walk in my purpose. While being the light in someone else's darkness. I am crowned & authentic."
~Kesh
Where I thought I was...
Before I share who I am now, let me tell you where God brought me from. Not for sympathy, but so you can see that His grace is enough.
I had the car, the apartment, and the life that seemed "good." But behind the surface, I was lost. I chased temporary highs like shopping, drinking, partying because I didn’t know my worth. I was insecure and searching for love in all the wrong places.
"I stayed in bed for hours waking up only to get high again."
The Pit I Didn't see...
Depression set in, and I started smoking marijuana again. What began casually, turned into edibles, then hallucinations. I lost touch with reality. I lost touch with myself. I didn’t know who I was.
I was fighting reality with fantasy.
I stayed in bed for hours, waking only to get high again. I slept because my dreams felt better than my life. Meanwhile my home fell apart, dishes piled up, trash overflowed, and I isolated myself inside the house. I was afraid to go outside. I felt like I would die.
My kids weren’t with me. Thank God but I felt deeply alone. Even with my boyfriend at the time, I was alone. All we did was get high. I didn’t see the pattern until almost 4 years later, not when I got evicted, not when i left and came back to him, not even when others tried to help me.
Who would’ve thought a smart woman like me could fall into addiction?
There’s no shame here. I am healed.
"God shepherd me through the valley."
The Shepherd in the Valley...
"The Lord is my shepherd; I have all that I need. He lets me rest in green meadows; he leads me beside peaceful streams.
I didn’t know it then, but God was shepherding me through the valley. I never left His care even when my life was falling apart.
"Being planted in a church where the Holy Spirit dwells changed my life."
How God Healed Me...
God didn’t heal me overnight. He walked it out with me. Painting saved me. Worshiping and singing praises to God healed me.
Journaling helped me process what I couldn’t say out loud. Praying and fasting helped me to see clearly.
And I could feel every prayer of the righteous.
Going to church allowed God to do surgery on me. Every message healed something in me and transformed my mind. Yes, God will meet you where you are but I don’t care what nobody says, it ain’t nothing like being in the house of the Lord. That’s where real healing and deliverance takes place.
Being planted in a church where the Holy Spirit dwells changed my life. God healed me not only in private moments, but in community, through His Word, His presence, and the prayers of His people.
"I don’t pursue holiness because I’m pressured to. I pursue it because I desire to be righteous like Jesus."
Now Look at me
Now look at me.
A butterfly.
An eagle soaring.
I am not the same Kee.
I am healthier, wiser, and walking in discernment.
Everything I’m doing now is because of Jesus. He called me, corrected me, and redirected me away from the pit that once held me.
I don’t pursue holiness because I’m pressured to.
I pursue it because I desire to be righteous like Jesus.
When God restores your soul, you don’t want to go back to what almost destroyed you.
"I am peculiar, an overcomer, with power and authority."
Who I am Today
I am Mykesha. I also go by "ItsYaGirlKesh". I am peculiar, an overcomer, with power and authority.
I serve as the Lead Creative of Crowned & Authentic and the host of The Cool of the Day Podcast, spaces God allowed me to birth from my healing.
This is not about branding.
This is about bearing witness.
If He did it for me, He can do it for you.
"Aside from lead creative and host, you may find me painting, singing, reading, journaling, spending time with family, skating, at the gym, walking near lakes or rivers, traveling to a city near you, admiring nature. Passing out joy everywhere I go."